Sunday, October 30, 2005
I feel like I am dreaming but I am awake. I feel like I am in heaven but I am alive.
You are four more days away from me. It seems like a lifetime. The only thing keeping me sane is the sound of your voice and the words in your messages.
diagnosed of lucid psychosis
10:06 AM
Saturday, October 15, 2005
I realised it must be really scary to watch a horror movie with me. I tend to grab the arms of people around me (people I know of course) at the really scary parts of the movie. Mandee will definitely second that. Hahaha. Watched The Wig yesterday, it is really scary despite the lack of storyline/plot. It's just the theatrics that make it scary; the music, the images. And not to mention it is really gory. GORE + SHOCK = I CANNOT TAHAN.
I like my life now. Working during weekdays and having oozles and doodles of fun during the weekends. It is so much better than poly life; which will unfortunately start in three weeks.
I have come so far and so I will plunge, and pray someone will catch me before I hit the ground and shatter.
diagnosed of lucid psychosis
10:13 AM
Monday, October 10, 2005
Michelle lost her mobile on friday. She was unusually calm about it. Although she said it was something that meant so much to her, she said she didn't feel lost without it. In fact, there was this odd sense freedom. So do I.
She took away the rose coloured glasses so I could see after being blind for so long. And I didn't like what I saw. I didn't like who I had become.
You pushed me to the edge of that black, dark void of destruction. And you expected me to jump in, crawl out again and worship you. I am trying so hard to search for what I saw before, what was there that made you so beautiful before. And I am having a hard time finding it. It seems to be truly gone.
The only thing I weep for is the damnation of your wrecked soul. I will try to salvage it. But your lack of consideration for human emotions has ruined you.
We were meant to live for so much more, but we lost ourselves.
diagnosed of lucid psychosis
12:41 AM
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